Tuesday, August 21, 2007
phew~~
i long long long time nvr update my blog
by typing lotsa lotsa words....
i jz post video/photos when i m free
i didnt noe wat 2 write...
monday...having auditing test
i spent few hrs in few days 2 study
but i didnt wat da hell i studied oso...
all bout theories...is jz boring
& is hard 2 interpret the meaning
so...i couldnt understand wat i had studied
...
monday early morning
8am,went 2 library
studied topic1-3
then only knew wat auditing is about
luckily....if not,i didnt noe how 2 do da test oso
even most of them i m not sure bout da answers
but i m glad...i did it
2day,PriceWaterhouseCoopers came 2 our college & had a talk
erm...
ok....is not tat boring...but i nearly fell asleep few times during the talk
& i hate 2 work!!!
i mean..i really enjoy study now
y should a Yr2 student needs 2 worry 4 her future job right now?
cant she jz sit down n enjoy her studies life until she graduate??
hate.......i 1 2 b laoda,spend time at home rather than doing internship
but wat 2 do?haih!!
i told myself i 1 2 b a great mother,great grandmother,great great grandmother
wat r da requirements 2 meet my future 'job'?
ppl scare i get angry
ppl scare i ll cry
y ar??even i dun,but thy still worry...
i hardly get angry....really hard
i cant remember da last time i get angry
crying?ya....cried last night....very cham
some friens can c my eyes r swollen...
i m a easy-2-cry person
mostly is bcuz i think too much
get sad very easily
(some1 who is easy 2 laugh,is easy 2 cry
cuz thy can find happiness easily,& find sadness in da same way)
but after a deep sleep,i m ok edi
2day in da car,when my mum asked me wat happened 2 my eyes
on da way i was explaining 2 her,i cried again
i m jz....a very easy-2-cry person
yet,i find it hard 2 solve feelings problems
those problems which affects my feelings
i can think about it in every second
non-stop thinking until i sleep
then thinki again after wake up
...erm....r these problems?..
some mayb not....mayb it s jz a process
4 every1
& now i m facing it...again & again
i find it harder & harder 2 solve da same problem
i luv it,i hate it,i 1 2 lose it yet i 1 2 keep it
this is da feeling...
confusing all da time
it s clear but sometimes is blur
damn...i dunno wat da hell i m talking about
2day,when i was trying 2 take out my tissue &1ed 2 lend some1
suddenly saw my old wound was bleeding(unexpectedly)
n it s a bit scary...
even i donated my blood 3 times
seriously,i nearly faint tat time....
i long long long time nvr update my blog
by typing lotsa lotsa words....
i jz post video/photos when i m free
i didnt noe wat 2 write...
monday...having auditing test
i spent few hrs in few days 2 study
but i didnt wat da hell i studied oso...
all bout theories...is jz boring
& is hard 2 interpret the meaning
so...i couldnt understand wat i had studied
...
monday early morning
8am,went 2 library
studied topic1-3
then only knew wat auditing is about
luckily....if not,i didnt noe how 2 do da test oso
even most of them i m not sure bout da answers
but i m glad...i did it
2day,PriceWaterhouseCoopers came 2 our college & had a talk
erm...
ok....is not tat boring...but i nearly fell asleep few times during the talk
& i hate 2 work!!!
i mean..i really enjoy study now
y should a Yr2 student needs 2 worry 4 her future job right now?
cant she jz sit down n enjoy her studies life until she graduate??
hate.......i 1 2 b laoda,spend time at home rather than doing internship
but wat 2 do?haih!!
i told myself i 1 2 b a great mother,great grandmother,great great grandmother
wat r da requirements 2 meet my future 'job'?
- get a good husband
- get a good job b4 i retire
- buy properties & make use of it,all i need is 2 receive rentals!
- Bursa Malaysia(my alternative income)
- always b hard working
- wat else?i dunno edi
ppl scare i get angry
ppl scare i ll cry
y ar??even i dun,but thy still worry...
i hardly get angry....really hard
i cant remember da last time i get angry
crying?ya....cried last night....very cham
some friens can c my eyes r swollen...
i m a easy-2-cry person
mostly is bcuz i think too much
get sad very easily
(some1 who is easy 2 laugh,is easy 2 cry
cuz thy can find happiness easily,& find sadness in da same way)
but after a deep sleep,i m ok edi
2day in da car,when my mum asked me wat happened 2 my eyes
on da way i was explaining 2 her,i cried again
i m jz....a very easy-2-cry person
yet,i find it hard 2 solve feelings problems
those problems which affects my feelings
i can think about it in every second
non-stop thinking until i sleep
then thinki again after wake up
...erm....r these problems?..
some mayb not....mayb it s jz a process
4 every1
& now i m facing it...again & again
i find it harder & harder 2 solve da same problem
i luv it,i hate it,i 1 2 lose it yet i 1 2 keep it
this is da feeling...
confusing all da time
it s clear but sometimes is blur
damn...i dunno wat da hell i m talking about
2day,when i was trying 2 take out my tissue &1ed 2 lend some1
suddenly saw my old wound was bleeding
(unexpectedly)n it s a bit scary...
even i donated my blood 3 times
seriously,i nearly faint tat time....
-{ i cried for you again at 5:12 PM }-
