Demons & Angels

2010-08-05T16:28:00.002+08:00

haha...season cm to the end
i have ages no post anything here since i contribute in others
long time, there isn't a corner for myself
well, what happened?
what motivates me to post something here
most probably i have just finished my report here
while waiting for my senior to complete hers to combine it
i have changed my job & attended the interview on my birthday
did i get this job bcuz of my birthday?
i wonder...hehe
cuz i didnt perform well in the interview as my attire not proper that time
so the confidence level went lower
however
is too late to say all these since i got it
& i just got my confirmation letter 2 days ago
the increment is low but is better than none
i have great times with my bf recently
maybe his birthday is nearer
that's why i treat him better & zero argument
proud of myself & thank him to make me have good moods all days
i bought a car bcuz of the new job
i only contribute 12%, the others are from my mum & bank
so u can guess how long i m going 2 pay them off to clear my debts
after all, i m searching for a landed house
as i not fancy to stay in condo or apartment
i dont like to stay with so many ppl in 1 building
it makes me feel insecure no matter thr is guard or wat
i ll save more money to realise my dream
& i want to pass my CPA this time
2 subjects! strike it!!hehe
all the best to others
always always
look at the brighter side even u r inside the well
u may see rainbow :)

2010-01-24T17:01:00.002+08:00

well,i m back for awhile here
since i got extra time to write something here
since i m back from the fire accident
since i m back from the loss of my parents' car
since i m back from the loss of my ah gong
i was busy
totally lost in some experiences that i nvr experienced before
in these 2 months
i dunno how to describe all these
it s terrible...i need to sigh everytime i talk about these
since when god started to challenge me,train me to become stronger
invincibly, Yes, I do
& honestly, i hate to experience these
even though someday I m going to face the same thing
it jz happened too fast....

life was awful
there s a long long way to finish your path
i m glad i no need to walk alone
life is great

2009-11-09T21:58:00.002+08:00

time really passes so fast
& i oways say the same thing
i m getting older
ppl may see me as a happy go lucky girl
no worries & problem-free
honestly
every1 got problems
beneath the heart
the difference is only how u r going to defeat ur problems
it may not be ended so quick
u need to open ur heart, forgive it & forget it
i admit i were a bad temper person
ask my niece & mr yoon
they definitely will agree with me
but these few years
thank him, mr yoon
showing me his generous & good attitude all these days
i was touched by it
& i improved alot,seriously
my real anger has turned into fake anger
fake anger jz 2 exchange more laughters in life

life will be jz colorful
if u how 2 mix it wif ur family,relatives,friens,colleagues,pets...& him
be happy, everyday
today feel down? nvm, tomorrow will be a better day or
someday will be a better day

2009-10-08T22:42:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

finally i get back here again

is not tat i m busy like hell
but i m busy,were busy, for my life,not only on my work
so many things happened
there is not a day
tat can let me breathe & free at home doing nothing
none!
especially the CPA,it s gonna killing my brain cells
or maybe i leave collage quite awhile
alot of theories are difficult for me to understand instantly
& i gain weights!
feel like crying when i look at my tummy now,
it doesnt looks like last time
a waist without any fat
a waist filled up with my pride
now,no more...no more
i gotta exercise before it s getting worse

....to be continued

2009-08-05T22:07:00.002+08:00

it s been 5 months i worked...
well.....there r ups & downs & ups & downs
down? i cried at the office when thien hoe called me & i was stressed
ups? when i finished my stuffs & clients & bosses r happy
more ups? when thien hoe & family always be there for me
it s blessed to feel secure
even u cant find happiness in workplace
u know someone can cheer u up too
i m glad he has found a job too
my worries? i hope v can cope with this busy life together mentally & separate physically
without the datelines and up-coming jobs
my colleagues are great to have fun with
if not,everyone's face will turn into grey & blue
rushing to meet dateline
i 've learnt alot
from audit,tax & standards
but there are more to be learnt
life is meaningful if u think positively
u need 2 learn forgive and forget
then life is great & brilliant

younger girls who are 22 & below
please enjoy ur life as much as possible
dont depends on love,
believe me, it kills ur time
learn to play
learn to social
study hard
gain more general knowledge
dont be a stupid & innocent girl who always think about guys
it wastes ur time & youth
i m very very very glad,
tat i start dating at 20
not too young & not too old
at least know what should do & what shouldnt do
& even u really date a guy
make sure it is the best one
dont waste ur time, babe

this is the message to 'girls' that i concerned
i m busy
but i love my life

2009-06-04T21:50:00.002+08:00

赤裸的爱
不是叫你脱光光送给你的爱人
而是抛下一切光环，尊严和面子
最好还有你的化妆
让他看清楚你的真面目
让他知道你有多丑陋
如果他就是那么傻，那么笨
还是爱你保护你
为你生为你死
为你哭为你笑
有着这么对你痴情的爱人
有时就是这么贱
觉得特别地骄傲，觉得特别地幸福
没有人会明白我们很纯真的感情
我能给你我的手
也能给你我的下辈子
我就是赤裸的爱他
让他知道
我就是这么搞笑

2009-05-07T21:14:00.003+08:00

now i realize
studying is much more better than working
is it too late 2 realize that?
but what is so great about working?
the only things that motivates me to work are
the one who always besides me & comfort me
the one who brings peace to my heart
another thing is future
what i am doing now relates to my future
whether i ll b rich or successful
is depends on what i am doing now
i work hard, everyday
i am very selfish to my time
i dont want to spend it on somewhere which i think is not essential
last thing that motivates me
is the honour to get my current job
i can say...it can be easy or difficult to get my job
but this is the job that i m looking for when i was studying
it was part of my plan & i make it now!
it is tired
to work & work
but i m still young
no matter how hard it is
i know i have to force myself to do it
no matter how others look at me & treat badly to me
i know i have a shoulder to cry on
my life,love & work are started to be balanced
the only thing i may miss it is my friendship
i lost a friend
i miss the chance to meet ann
i m still havent got the chance to meet bum & hong
i have long while nvr meet my secondary friends
i feel like i m losing lotsa friends when time goes by
but trust me,do believe me
i nvr ever forget any1 of u in every single day
i understand friendship is not 24 hr,but it will be forever
miss u guys

STOP THE VIOLENCE

2009-04-12T21:06:00.002+08:00

there is only one type of movie i hate and fear the most.....violent movie
violent movies like Sweeney Todd, Saw, House of Wax, Labyrinth.....
until recently, The Shinjuku Incident.....
GOSH! i hate bloods!!!!!
whenever they chop the hand, finger, cut the neck or stab someone's eye with knife
i can feel the PAIN!!!!
i know that even in reality, it happens everyday in this world
i have one hope,the only hope which lives under my heart for so long...
Dear all Mafias & Alongs, please,u can scold ppl & chase ppl & steal the money
but please,dont be violent
it hurts when ppl lose their blood & flesh
for so long,i have protected myself from being kidnapped
why?
because i scare the kidnappers will dig my eye,chop my finger or leg
& force me to be foreign beggar
seriously, i am very scared
please stop the violence
please give a chance to other ppl to have complete body
please .... world peace with no war

poor Altantuya, murdered by the crime minister....pity for her
pity for malaysians....everyone who murdered her
but no one dares to stand up & point at that botak guy & plastic face wife
violence & violent!

2009-03-28T14:50:00.001+08:00

KHAIRY,

I HATE YOU!!!!!!

G&D!!

2009-03-24T22:43:00.002+08:00

hello
i m back
back to reality since cm back from europe
so far i nvr waste any second
i fully utilise my timetable & time jz passes so fast!!
i still can remember how 2 walk from london hotel to st paul cathedral
i still remember how to take bus & tram from cologne hotel to university
i still remember how to say from 1 to 10 in german
it s been 2 months i m back
& almost a month to do auditing
well....is funny
i mentioned tat i was very very happy tat i got this job last time
now....I AM HAPPY!!!
& u know wat
my senior & i handling 8 companies after the 1st 2 days we came in
so...each of us handling four of it
....
....
....
....
& today,i jz found out 1 of the companies
last yr got 7 ppl handled it
now....only me,doing everything on it except for letting DR review it
same for other 3 companies
i really fainted....
but...very weird
some how i feel happy
i feel happy to do OT
cuz my OT...is doing non-rest-works
non-stop & non-stop
but but but
i have a confession to make
to my bosses
...

Dear bosses,

the first day i joined your company, i felt excited.
the second day i joined your company, i felt blessed.
the third day i joined your company, i already sent by you to client's company to do audit.
& seriously, after 15 days struggling with audit working papers
i finally know the 50% of what i have done...
is not my senior's fault
is not ur fault, either
but i have question for u..
do u really have so high expectation on me since i did all these in past 2 weeks????
i wonder...& i really want to know what u think of me
please tell me
cuz i dunno what i should do in next stage

from the blurrest employee of your respective company

so....
ya....i found out tat auditing is much more interesting than accounting
& i really looking forward of how my future will be like someday
take care!!but except for najib
i oso waiting for the mongolian women case,either~

2009-03-16T21:45:00.002+08:00

story was started
when i lost a trusted friend on my birthday eve
it was very difficult for me to believe & accept the fact
12 o clock shot
many friens happily 2 greet me birthday
but i wasnt happy at all
i couldnt sleep
i couldnt react
i jz met him few days after chinese new year
this happened so suddenly & so pathetic
the only thing i worry the most is her
i truly hope she ll get thru these
i know i m not strong as her if i am her
i hope she knows that i love her as friend
i will do whatever i can to help her
life is precious yet difficult

my job,isnt easy
but when i think of the process to get this job
i feel proud of myself
at last i found stg tat is more than one meaning of my life
it s isnt easy
but i need 2 work hard
so tat i will be confirmed 2 stay after probation period
i am quiet...in workplace
i dont pay notice on anyone
i feel like i am alone,but not lonely obviously
i have a caring senior
funny colleague.......so far i only have them
i cant be naughty edi,got 2 be serious & act mature
haih.....
i miss hanging out wif friends...
i miss it...so much

& him...
he is getting nicer & caring
& so much fun to have him 2 get entertainment
& got so much things to share when no1 listen to my rubbish talk
i dun need a handsome prince for my birthday wish
i dun need more money to spend
i dun need more "friends" to act as my "friends"
all i just want,to have a peaceful life,no matter when & where & who or how
hope everyone has a peaceful life too...except najib

2009-03-06T19:12:00.002+08:00

who is the one who murdered Altantuyaa??
who is the one who threatened the local medias not to report the case of Altantuyaa?

will he be our prime minister?

i hope the one who killed Altantuyaa will get punishment & has nightmare every night...

Najib, is that you?

2009-03-02T23:00:00.001+08:00

this is the song n lyrics whr the hitz morning crews "copied" from If I were a boy by Beyonce
haha...it made me choke in the car when i was having lunch & driving 2 work

http://williamleong.blogspot.com/2009/02/if-i-were-boss-hitz-fm-beyonce-if-i.html

If I were the boss
*mornin boss how r u? bagus bagus...*
Even just for a day
*one chance only u know..what will u do ar? tats y im tellin u la..wait la..*
I would change the station name from Hitz to Radio Ean and JJ
*tats a nice ring to it.. tats y, just for u bro..*

If I were the boss
*wat will uuuuu do?*
Work will start on Tuesday
*wat do u think? i like i like, Wednesday also can*
We will end the week on Thursday and everyday will be halfday
*maybe 2hrs onli..better*

If I were the boss
I think I could understand
How it feels to work on budget
And give a raise of 20cent
Hang out with the girls
*babe apa khabar?..bagus~*
And be hard on the guys
*sori ar brother..have to la, cari makan*
Might dispatch me riding Harleys
Our trips will be to Bali
If we bankrupt I will break down and cry

If I were the boss
I will come up with a plan
*check it out ar..ehem ehem*
Make everyone do all the work
Take the credit and look like the man
*wah banyak handal ar u..thank u thank u*

If I were the boss
My lunch break will be 2days
*wah so long ar..yala then onli enuf time to eat*
I have PS3 in my room 200inch LCD and play all day
My way..JJ

If I were the boss
I think I could understand
How it feels to work on budget
And give a raise of 20cent
Hang out with the girls
*u looking very pretty today, naik gaji*
And be hard on the guys
*hey she looks pretty ok u do all her work..nonsense*

Might dispatch me riding Harleys
Our trips will be to Bali
If we bankrupt I wil break down and cry

Cause I will always come in late
Just to show who I'm
And if I was a girl I wil make them all call me Mam
*mornin Mam*
If you thought I wud be nicer
Then you thought it wrong~
*adui sakit..tarikla sikit*

But we are not the boss
*i knw tis sadly..haih...*
So we cannot cuti....cannot cuti..
Come to office really early
To try to make some money
So we can open stall jual nasi

*goreng, pattaya, kandar, lemak, wat else ar? ah..dagang.. so now wat do we do? i dunno..wait for the song to finish la cuz we r not the boss.. o yea...tunggu boss cakap la..boss..boss..okok thank u...ok bye boss..*

2009-03-02T21:13:00.002+08:00

everything is gd gd gd

everything is smooth smooth smooth

i saw rainbow while it s raining

izzit a sign?

i got compliments

is tat gd?

i think

someone jz wanted to tell me

no matter how bad is the situation

i know i can

i am lucky

but since my life changed 1 yr ago

i knew i have to work hard to keep my luck

somehow i know

my life is good

when thr s up,then thr ll be down

but i mz let it up again

thank u

u know who u r

2009-02-20T11:30:00.003+08:00

well well well
after situating in this pathetic malaysian politics
finally i got somethin to comfort myself

I GOT A JOB!!!!
this will be the happiest thing after cm back from Europe
i was & am excited & non-stop disturbing th
i guess he ll think i am too annoying for him...haha

orite....
i had gone for 3 to 4 interview before i went to europe
it were under my satisfactory as all not what i expected
i mean...is jz not perfect for me
therefore i didnt really have the 'heart' & preparation for those interviews
till..........i cm back
i went for the 1st interview at taipan
well,it is gd....but it is too small as thr r only 2 persons thr
it is very near to my place & i can jz park my car at my brother's house
i really can save a lot of money in this
then i went 2 another interview in pj
bcuz tat time i almost accept the job offer from taipan
therefore i didnt expect much in the pj firm oso
till i was interviewed...
i realised tat it is so perfectly match my 'requirements' to work in accounting field
i can see my future....& it is very clear
so.....i wait & wait & wait...for their calls
& i really thought i cant get it
as i waited until i feel disappointed.....

''i am on the,top of the world~looking....down on creation..." *my ringtone
i tot is my mum...but is not....
it s the call which confirms i can work in the company tat i wanted so so so much!!
haha
i am too sarcastic to tell this story
haha
but i m really happy
i m not a demanding person
of cuz i hope i can work for big4 too
but not now,mayb after i completed my cpa or acca

now,i really need 2 work hard
mz work hard when u r young
be happy & no complaints

ohya...
to get this job
i need 2 thanks a lot of ppl....haha
but less than 10 la...haha
thank u thank u
all the best to everyone
but not for najib

2009-02-15T12:17:00.002+08:00

i feel very blur,extremely blurrrrr, after these few months
i also had two interviews,this month
but,still blur.....
maybe this year i have no more classes
i feel bored
i enjoy to hang up with my classmates
sitting at the canteen & thinking what is the alternate plan for skipping class
i enjoy the teasing,gossips,games with them
eating nice foods while complaining no more money in the pocket
i have stopped receiving 'income' from my parents
but some miscellaneous are still sponsored by them *bad daughter

in europe
i enjoy taking public transport to go wherever places i wanted
it is jz so efficient
unlike malaysia, the transports are sucks
this is what i hate malaysia
they encourage us to take public transport to reduce traffic jam
but hey,ur taxi is smelly and always wanted to cheat ur money
ur ktm,monorail,lrt, always rosak and late on time
ur buses and bus stop, one word, 'sucks'!
tat s y i never take public transports in msia
i think the number to take public transport in europe
is more than the number i take in msia for my whole life
i take bus,taxi and ktm less than 15 times in msia
ok,sorry msia,i m too rude to complain about these shits
but ur corruptions,selfishness,positions,greed,unfairness
have made this whole country falls like shit
can someone help this country?
the next Lincoln,Chuchill,Rossevelt,Reagen,...anyone?

how about the MCA?
did they really done stg for the chinese?
what are they doing now?
i jz know the president seem like bullying the Chua ( from my perspective of view)
why?
why there is a conflict?
can someone explain this?

how about the prime minister?
maybe next month or the following,we will have the new prime minister
well..
sincerely
the prime minister,whether is the current or the new one
will not be the malaysian's prime minister
he/she will only represent the name of MALAYSIA
y?
he/she must be the member of UMNO
only malay can be the member
why, we can't choose our prime minister?
why not everyone can be the prime minister?
what is so special to be the member of UMNO?
to encourge people crossover the parties or saying malaysian chinese people are like the jewish in msia?
funny......
I want president,not prime minister, in msia
i want to vote 'my' president
not to welcome the UMNO's best candidate for the 'PRIME MINISTER'

if the country doesnt like his/her people
why should the people love their country?
Kennedy said,
'dont ask what your country can do for you,
ask what you can do for your country'

FOR ME,
i will say
'my country is trying to fool the people,
soon or later the people will fool the country back,
this kind of 'war',will only bring peace to Malaysia after hundred year'
so bad i am here for this decades during 'war' time
pathetic..

2009-01-27T00:44:00.002+08:00

busy busy & busy
happy chinese new yr everyone!
sorry tat i m too busy these days
i dont even have time to "evaluate" my pictures
haven't started my assignments
alot alot of things 2 do...i dunno how
hope everything will getting better
all the best !!

2009-01-24T22:31:00.002+08:00

i jz came back
came back with a lot of stories
everyday got different stories
even there are many stories waiting for me too

in a foreign regions
the only person i miss most is my mum
the one i worry the most also is my mum
because i know she is the one who will miss me the most
& she is the one who will worry me the most too
sometimes i wish i can call her
but the phone bill will be terribly expensive
so v keep sms each other once in 2-3 days
i dont have time for internet access
maybe 5-10 minutes once
i only hav a quick check on my mail

the moment is long
but it ends fast
everything is jz perfect
better than my expectation
at least i can prove tat 2 asians can travel safely in europe

lastly
is hard 2 find a friend
who willing to spend such a large amount of money to travel with u
deep down in the heart
is to protect u & bring u back safely
2 humiliate such person is a disgrace action
i feel honour to have this friend

Happy Chinese New Year!!
World Peace

2008-12-13T13:15:00.002+08:00

today marks the last day as an employee in NOL Group
it was the second time to this company
so,i really have not much things to say
yet,i know,I have grown up
no matter what i do now
i keep a limit in it
so i wont get over it

5 months after separate with him
i understand the pain of the distance
i learn to treasure a man who really loves me
so far i never met a guy who is better than him
he is even better than my idol, Brad Pitt
i m glad i grab the best one
& i m goin 2 c him after 5 days

the only thing i m afraid the most is
i dont hav much time 2 meet my friends
i mean after i'm employed again
even i have time,they dont have
i will have lesser & lesser time
friends are for life
jz wanna tell u all,
i oways thinking about u
no matter who u r
as long as u r my friend

i m goin 2 miss every1
even is jz 1 month
especially my mum
the 1 i worry the most
cuz she s goin 2 take k of my "children"
hehe,jkjk

2008-11-15T10:21:00.002+08:00

some ppl like to talk
u can say.....like to bluff
this is part of life
say how good is he
how clever is he
how romantic is he
how rational is he
how mature is he
but in real world
when he finally face the thing he always bluff about
he can suddenly become an idiot there
i hardly believe how good are the people
i am quite a negative person
when i see a person
i see his weaknesses 1st
then i only slowly find out his strengths
hmmm...actually quite good also
when i jz knew my bf,
i didnt think he is good enough for me
when v slowly get closer
i found alot of things that i nvr expected before
i mean,good things

btw,today is our 14months ..hahaha

1 more month he ll coming back....yeah!

2008-11-11T20:28:00.001+08:00

wish my baby gd luck!!

2008-11-08T12:09:00.002+08:00

i watched a tv show
a couple was arguing and complaining each other
so the host asked the girlfriend y she so mad at her boyfriend
"well,he always want to launch a new business,
but everytime he did,it never succeed
he summore quit his previous job with stable income
if he doesnt have income,how am i going to depend on him in future?''

girls born to depend on guys meh?
haih
guys are human too
why is everyone always think selfishly?
i support theory of rights
every individual has just and equal right,and should be treated the same
y Obama cannot be president of US?
jz because he is black?so everyone cannot accept him?
black is wrong izzit?
is skin color really a matter?
y the black must become the slave?
y the jews must be eliminated?
y only malays can be the prime minister in Malaysia?
y not the indian?y not the chinese?
& y not for the person who has the ability to bring peace for the nation?
this is totally a discrimination
a disgrace
when u found an unreasonableness from your place of birth
u should change it,not escape from it
jz like Obama,
who dare to change
OBAMA THE GREATEST!

2008-11-07T21:05:00.002+08:00

my auntie asked me jz now
"r u in holidays now?no need go back to class?"

i answered
"well,i have finished everything,except the study tour
& even i want to back,i cant back edi..."

because,i no longer a student,but an adult
i cant use my student card anymore
i cant act cute like those chicks
i cant play around in the public
i......only can stay serious & act mature now
luckily
my student life doesnt waste with white paper
i had a rich moment
i had whatever i have
now i just need 2 treasure my time
cant waste it anymore
2days after my last paper
i work in my previous company
& today mark the fifth day
the 2nd day i worked,i have OT..until 830pm
3rd day,until 8pm
yesterday...until 9pm,the last one to walk out from the office
today better,7.30pm
i have 25 days more to work like that....oh my~
i think i am quite efficient
i havent had time to celebrate my last paper also
i dont have enough sleep
i dont have time for dinner
& i dont have good excuse to rest
i have no time to do meaningless thing
like spending time with people who doesnt care of u
go for blind dates
go for a fake relationship
these will only make me more unhealthy and headache
i rather spend time with people i love
with people that will remember you
with people to share ur happiness
i at least have a serious relationship
serious timetable
serious plan
& of cuz,a serious family
i never have enough time
to do whatever i want
but i always have a choice
to do whatever i dont want

now,i jz want to wait
wait till i can make a dream to reality

2nd cutest in the world!

2008-10-26T18:31:00.004+08:00

c my pretty leg~

get out of my way!

hmmm.....smell nice~

let me rest awhile

i can pose like a dog too

keep smelling

get out of my way!

argh.....itchy!

simple & easy

2008-10-25T22:27:00.003+08:00

a new hedgedog (3 months old) was bought by my auntie this afternooon
new cutie with Angel....hehe

looks like a pig

but he is hedgehog...hehe

tiramisu cake,by my uncle
thank u very much
i love this cake
& all the cakes u hav made every weekend

Family Guy - The Original Chicken Fight

2008-10-19T22:37:00.005+08:00

Family Guy - Chicken Fight Two

2008-10-19T22:37:00.003+08:00

Family Guy - Chicken Fight Three

2008-10-19T22:37:00.001+08:00

Family Guy - Stewie Beats Brian

2008-10-19T22:26:00.001+08:00

Family Guy - Lois Jumps Peter

2008-10-19T22:24:00.001+08:00

Family Guy Puke-A-Thon

2008-10-17T23:47:00.003+08:00

Family Guy

2008-10-17T23:47:00.001+08:00

2008-10-10T21:55:00.002+08:00

who is this?

the cute guy without spec

2008-10-10T20:30:00.002+08:00

2day is hot!
i hate hot weather
it makes me feel tired & sleepy
jz like a person without blood but sweats
hate it..
well...
2day went to new Old Town opposite pyramid 2 yam cha with another 5 classmates
v found a perfect seats & after tat
a waiter came & asked us
the seats r only for 4-6 persons (ya,v 6)
& bill mz at least rm50 & above (wat the hell)
this is the most stupiest & dumb requirement 2 sit in special seats!
v looked at each other ...then v changed 2 the other side
how can u choose a table according to ur bill?
izzit the seats near the toilet r for those bills below rm10?
stupid shit waiter
& in the end our bill is rm53.30
ask the waiter go 2 hell
i dun1 2 scold the waiter tat time bcuz i dun1 2 scare my friens & other customers
tat time i was really pissed
okok....anger management

after v paid the bill
i saw a shadow 'fly' thru a table of 2 girls
then the 2 girls look around & found stg is wrong
actually the shadow is the thief
he stole the 1 of the girls's hp
it s jz 2 late 2 get back cuz the shadow was gone with motorbike sound
so...
never ever put ur wallet/hp on the table no matter whr u r
they moves really really fast

ok la....tat s all for 2day
it s october already...
after 2 months...ngek ngek ngek

i will

2008-10-03T20:29:00.003+08:00

phew...
long time nvr update
i dun hav much inspiration 2 update my blog too..
this is the last month i will study in metropolitan
then i will graduate with my bachelor degree
time really flies very very fast
i can still imagine when i was 3 yr old
lived in a small single storey house in ayer tawar
my house was really small & my neighbours are all indians
now i am 21
an adult that is enough age to enter a jail (haha...touch wood!)
after tat i will become an employee
i will get married
i will become a mother
i will become a grandmother
i will become a great grandmother........
wah...i really cant imagine...
time will nvr nvr wait 4 us
no wonder the olds asked us 2 appreciate what we have now
always & always treasure those moments around u
cuz a moment can be a memory,even a history
i really feel contended
my life is fulled of ups & downs
still,i will accept everything that happens to me
sometimes i hate life
but sometimes
i cry for every beautiful things tat hav given to me
memories do not lie

since this is my last month in metro
as a student,as a classmate
i wanna talk about my classmates
these 3 yrs r amazing
i really met great & true friends,every single of them
1st,i met joe yin,even i m not so often contact her now
but i always remember the craziest time with her
bcuz of her,my life fulled of happenings
jacklyn,pei jing,tiffany are really a good bunch of friends
normah,v were close too,but now v hav total different class
distance is really irritating
cyi & lun r the 1st male friends tat i know
it is really bored if without them
bcuz they r jz too funny & 'pervert' to fun with
they r naughty,but they r kind-hearted
thienhoe was the later wan
he was so cool at 1st
now the cool guy has become my man...amazing
daniel is a guy tat fulled of stories tat know everything internationally
even he is emo sometimes,but he wont bite!hehe
& his closest undoubtly is theng2
she always dont understand y ppl can do this & tat
so is really gd 2 share opinions on 'question research'
sheree is the most caring 'mama' to all
she jz too gd to b a girl
my first study-in-library buddy
kelian...oways bullied by us
her future husband sure will give us lessons next time
& diane is another 'mama'
who always fighting wif mr ng & slid everywhere
she maybe too playful but she really got the 'mama' heart
joanne is another gal tat laugh very loud,super talkative
definite a super-girl that will help anyone who is in trouble
yenz is the most calm girl in the world
cooking & playing piano make the guys knee down to her
mel is the cnn who knows everybody's news
obviously her opinions helps alot when cm into troubles
april,even she is far far away from here
but i know her long long time ago
her academic is the best among all here
humble & willing to help ppl
i love her bcuz she loves cats too...haha
nic is too brave tat scares me very 'much'
her talking & driving skills r crazy
crazy nic,thanks 4 u & ur man 2 take care him
ah seng,i tot he is serious
actually he's not..haha
he is really a gd gd gd guy tat is unavailable to other gals...sad
i met twins in metro
i met a gd frien in qa class
i met other gd ppls too in these 3 yrs

life is jz too great with friends
& also to chung cheng's,neighbourhood's,nan hwa's,smk ss17's,taylor's
friendships r forever
sorry u guys 2 have me in ur life
cuz i wont let u hav a 'relaxing' life even u guys r old..haha
luckily i didnt enter monash even i had applied
bcuz i know i cant have the opportunity cost for this bunch of friends
i dun1 him 2 be the opportunity cost either
since life is great
i wont give it up easily

2008-09-15T03:12:00.000+08:00

1 year-i have kept this box
1 year-i have kept that happy face
1 year-i have kept the man as well

happy one year

2008-09-06T21:07:00.003+08:00

"I am surprised with the unexpected overwhelming support I had received from Malay-Muslims across the country. It seems Malays have kept back their disgruntlement for far too long and my issue had evoked their sentiments."

a brainless pig living in a multiracial country
giving a irresponsible statement to gain small amount of brainless animals' supports
if i robbed a woman's purse & raped her
when policemen caught me
i defend myself,''go & catch the woman,i want to sue her,she made me raped her!"
am i a pig?
yes,i am
even a dog witnessed this,it oso know i was guilty
the leader of the country said he accepted my explanation
& asked the woman go to police station herself & apologise to me
am i a pig?
yes,i am

this is malaysia
& this is where i was born
this is where i have my family,love,& friends
& i feel proud that someone from our race has got a silver medal from BeiJing Olympic
& i feel proud to have some nice & kind indian & malay friends

but it is pathetic
to have some brainless & hopeless "babies"
saying something that hurts everyone's heart
if i see that pig in front of me
trust me,i will slap him
no...my hand will get dirty
let him to get karma one day
let the god punish him
he deserves it

2008-09-02T21:01:00.003+08:00

ok..here r some photos 2 c

high school musical ice skating show in bukit jalil

then the photos below r sheree's birthday treat in kuchai lama

the cake

the people

people 2

people 3

& the foods....thank u abesheree :)

then v had small PN meeting in klang yesterday
ya,i put lao da's photo cuz i think this is the best one

2008-08-26T13:34:00.002+08:00

hello to all demons & angels
long time i havent posted any blog here
well.....guess i was busy busy & busy
now...is my mid-term break
so i can 38 a bit here
well....i miss u guys
really....

my cousin read my blog & kept asking me dont be sad
erm....am i tat sad all the time?
well....forgive the 12 yr-old girl,
she watched too much drama i guess

hmm...is sad when u think ur 'partner' is far far away from u
but is ok....he is coming back not more than 4 months time
& v r going to europe 2 days after he comes back here
trip,air fares & most of the things have settled down
nowi jz need 2 worry for my money
i need 2 start saving some so i feel a bit released for any problem thr

my blog is really lack of colours now
no more photos
cuz...i m too lazy 2 upload
but i ll upload some in facebook
like sheree's birthday celebration,high school musical ice skating....

tmr is PN member,Elisa's 21st birthday
Happy Birthday Elsa!!hehe
Lao Da is back,Ann is coming home too
Hong is working,Bum is having holiday like me
hmm...duno wat is Karen doing now.. :)
i wish all of us can meet again,someday
& hope everyone is doing fine.....
miss u all
this is my last semester
& i will try my best to get a gd result

2008-08-15T18:31:00.004+08:00

Happy 11-Month
even u cant celebrate with me
but v definitely can replace it in Cologne
love u always

2008-07-27T12:05:00.002+08:00

was listened to some guys' songs
i feel touched by the love songs...
i like sad song,cuz is really sad,feel like wanna cry when listen those 'break up' songs
hehe..
sometimes i ever wonder wat's on guy's mind
really cant figure out wat s on their mind
wat kind of logic thinking they hav
even i read books about guy
it is simple to understand
but when it comes to reality
it is hard,very hard
are all the guys same?
i wanted 2 b a guy long long ago
cuz guys dont need 2 wear skirt & no menstruation
4 me, guys are just simple
they can scold or beat ppl when they 'bo song'
i wanna beat ppl oso...haha
how good if i am a guy
sure got lotsa girls admire me
i am tall(compare 2 girls),cool but sometimes emo,& caring
i understand wat's on girl's mind
i can satisfy girl in easy way
when i started to know about lesbian & gay thingy
i read books & gather a lot of info 2 understand this concept
i had a moment 2 figure whether i am 'normal'/les/bi
i did!
as a result,i really dont like girls
i cannot imagine if i m in love with them & pak tor-ing with them
i know i am not les/bi
girls can only be good friends of mine,but not a 'darling' for me
but i never look down on them
whether is a gay or lesbian
cuz loving someone,v shouldnt care about their age,race,sex & others
there is no reason to love somebody
love is respectful
cuz it s true & pure btwn the 2 persons
tats y i cry when i watched brokeback mountain
it s so touch--i really love that movie
but my mum has hidden it ...i cant find the dvd...haih

love is everything
i know it when i m in love
congratulation 2 my 'old' friend who jz pak tor..haha

i hope i can be a real guy in my next life
2 experience a guy
& mr yoon will b my gf (& wife) again,haha

compliment to mr yoon

2008-07-17T20:57:00.004+08:00

i wonder..
am i tough enough 2 get through these few months
actually i 1 write this post
so tat when u open my blog tat time
u wont c the pic wif my baby
hehehe

u understand y i cant adjust my life now onot?
10 months ago
my life changed
during weekend
mr yoon will call me then v went out for breakfast
then hang out,lunch,movie,dinner,hangout then back home
not only weekend
most of the time he is with me
v only once,5 days(longest ever) nvr c each other
tat s bcuz v were working tat time
quite busy,so the feelings for 5days like (=5months)
& our working hour almost the same
so everyday on the way 2 office & 2 home after work
v will call each other
phone did play an very important role
dunno y,v got so so so many things 2 talk
sometimes raining or i work very late,
he ll come 2 my working place
send me 2 my car,& follow my car back 2 subang,then he goes back
i worked thr for 2 months tat time
now i feel he is incredibly nice

after tat,v normally meet everyday,or 2,3days once
my sis said i m cruel
oways ask him 2 cm here 2 find me from kl 2 subang
but...he miss me mah,i didnt force him oso
normally if v meet,v ll spend the whole day 2gether
after he send me back,i ll call him immediately
until he reach home
dunno whether i m too sticky or he is too enjoying
or vice versa
i only know,i love my life

honestly,he is not a 'talented' romantic person
mr yoon is quite a 'wood' guy
but good 4 him,cuz when he does stg outrageous
u ll feel extremely sweet
especially when v were 'singled'
he almost everynight on9
he said he1 2 'hunt' me
sometimes he ll pass me stg after class
brought me out,without any1 knowing
v went a lot a lot of places
b4 & after this relationship starts

thr was once
the last paper during finals-accounting theory
the night b4 the paper
he stayed alone in library & studied
& i came 2 fetch him during library closed
i came earlier & i waited him at downstair
i didnt call him but he saw me b4 he came down
when he came 2 me,he suddenly give me a kiss on my forehead
i was shocked,cuz he is not tat kind of person
he didnt even dare 2 touch me in public area like college
even i feel shocked,but my face was red & i was touched
tat night he said,''this is probably the last night i stayed in this library''
i know tat kiss wasnt an accident & i know he was terribly sad tat time
tat night was the 2nd most unforgettable night 4 me
the most 1,was on 4th july
the last time he sent me back home
i was crying like hell at the door thr
soundless & hopeless
my heart was so pain
& i really dunno y
it jz suddenly all came out,hardly 2 describe

i think i wrote alot here
sort of like showing off mr yoon
promoting him
but i m not
i m very miss him
i can write a lot a lot
but too many things happened btwn us
it s hard 2 write all here

watever...i miss him
very very very
i want my 'life' back 2 normal
arghhhhh

let me sleep awhile 1st

2008-07-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

happy ten months to my baby

2008-07-14T18:47:00.002+08:00

hmmm
long long time didnt post edi
well....not much 2 post oso
since i pak tor
i hav no time 2 blog
no time 2 online
& now...
not no time 2 blog
is jz tat i dunno wat 2 blog

my class has started since 1st of July
i took 3 subjects only cuz i m going for europe study tour next january
2 exempt my other 2 general electives
now is the 3rd week of my semester
well,i didnt find much fun in it
mayb my mood not adjust well
mayb is too boring
mayb my baby is not ard me,i cant study
no no...i can study
but jz,i dun hav da initiatives 2 study
i dun like the weathers nowadays
suddenly everything around me become gray
i just couldnt resist how things have changed me

when my days will be bright again?
how pathetic i am now
i feel sad most of the times
& most of times i m bringing my fake smile
i only feel happy when i skype with my baby
how cruel i am treating myself like tat
god,i need 2 rest
give me time,i will be strong again

Snow White - Someday My Prince Will Come

2008-07-12T10:50:00.002+08:00

Some day my prince will come
Some day we'll meet again
And away to his castle we'll go
To be happy forever I know

Some day when spring is here
We'll find our love anew
And the birds will sing
And wedding bells will ring
Some day when my dreams come true

Pocahontas Music - Farewell

2008-07-05T13:17:00.001+08:00

2008-07-05T12:41:00.002+08:00

yesterday i supposed b wif my PN group only
but my baby came in last minute
even he brought us 2 the curve
thank him for giving us space 2 have girl talks
but b4 tat
v had a great lunch ever at Bubba Gump

cheese bread with delicious prawns

stg like fish & chips but no chips thr,i love the mashed potatoes

do i look sad in this pic?well..somehow i am,but i m still happy to meet these girls

after tat,v had dinner at dragon-i

prawn again :P

& my baby..this is probably the last dinner i had with him before he left
i sound sad & useless recently
but i know i can do it
dont worry thien hoe
i can

2008-07-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

Malaysia politics' shame [click here]

2008-07-03T20:31:00.001+08:00

from malaysiakini.com

I, Balasubramaniam a/l Perumal ... do solemly and sincerely declare as follows:

1. I have been a police officer with the Royal Malaysian Police Force, having joined as a constable in 1981 attached to the police field force. I was then promoted to the rank of lance corporal and finally resigned from the police force in 1998 when I was with the Special Branch.

2. I have been working as a freelance private investigator since I left the police force.

3. Sometime in June or July 2006, I was employed by Abdul Razak Baginda for a period of 10 days to look after him at his office at the Bangunan Getah Asli, Jalan Ampang between the hours of 8am to 5pm each working day as apparently he was experiencing disturbances from a third party.

4. I resigned from this job after 2½ days as I was not receiving any proper instructions.

5. I was however re-employed by Abdul Razak Baginda on the Oct 5, 2006 as he had apparently received a harassing phone call from a Chinese man calling himself ASP Tan who had threatened him to pay his debts. I later found out this gentleman was in fact a private investigator called Ang who was employed by a Mongolian woman called Altantuya Shaaribuu.

6. Abdul Razak Baginda was concerned that a person by the name of Altantuya Shaaribuu, a Mongolian woman, was behind this threat and that she would be arriving in Malaysia very soon to try and contact him.

7. Abdul Razak Baginda informed me that he was concerned by this as he had been advised that Altantuya Shaaribuu had been given some powers by a Mongolian ‘bomoh’ and that he could never look her in the face because of this.

8. When I enquired as to who this Mongolian woman was, Abdul Razak Baginda informed me that she was a friend of his who had been introduced to him by a VIP and who asked him to look after her financially.

9. I advised him to lodge a police report concerning the threatening phone call he had received from the Chinese man known as ASP Tan but he refused to do so as he informed me there were some high-profile people involved.

10. Abdul Razak Baginda further told me that Altantuya Shaaribuu was a great liar and good in convincing people. She was supposed to have been very demanding financially and that he had even financed a property for her in Mongolia.

11. Abdul Razak Baginda then let me listen to some voice messages on his handphone asking him to pay what was due otherwise he would be harmed and his daughter harassed.

12. I was therefore supposed to protect his daughter Rowena as well.

13. On Oct 9, 2006 I received a phone call from Abdul Razak Baginda at about 9.30am informing me that Altantuya was in his office and he wanted me there immediately. As I was in the midst of a surveillance, I sent my assistant Suras to Abdul Razak Baginda’s office and I followed a little later. Suras managed to control the situation and had persuaded Altantuya and her two friends to leave the premises. However Altantuya left a note written on some Hotel Malaya notepaper, in English, asking Abdul Razak Baginda to call her on her handphone (number given) and wrote down her room number as well.

14. Altantuya had introduced herself to Suras as ‘Aminah’ and had informed Suras she was there to see her boyfriend Abdul Razak Baginda.

15. These three Mongolian girls however returned to Abdul Razak Baginda’s office at the Bangunan Getah Asli, Jalan Ampang again, the next day at about 12 noon. They did not enter the building but again informed Suras that they wanted to meet Aminah’s boyfriend, Abdul Razak Baginda.

16. On Oct 11, 2006, Aminah returned to Abdul Razak Baginda’s office on her own and gave me a note to pass to him, which I did. Abdul Razak Baginda showed me the note which basically asked him to call her urgently.

17. I suggested to Abdul Razak Baginda that perhaps it may be wise to arrange for Aminah to be arrested if she harassed him further, but he declined as he felt she would have to return to Mongolia as soon as her cash ran out.

18. In the meantime, I had arranged for Suras to perform surveillance on Hotel Malaya to monitor the movements of these three Mongolian girls, but they recognised him. Apparently they become friends with Suras after that and he ended up spending a few nights in their hotel room.

19. When Abdul Razak Baginda discovered Suras was becoming close to Aminah he asked me to pull him out from Hotel Malaya.

20. On the Oct 14, 2006, Aminah turned up at Abdul Razak Baginda’s house in Damansara Heights when I was not there. Abdul Razak Baginda called me on my handphone to inform me of this so I rushed back to his house. As I arrived, I noticed Aminah outside the front gates shouting “Razak, bastard, come out from the house”. I tried to calm her down but couldn’t, so I called the police who arrived in two patrol cars. I explained the situation to the police, who took her away to the Brickfields police station.

21. I followed the patrol cars to Brickfields police station in a taxi. I called Abdul Razak Baginda and his lawyer Dirren to lodge a police report but they refused.

22. When I was at the Brickfields police station, Aminah’s own private investigator, one Mr Ang arrived and we had a discussion. I was told to deliver a demand to Abdul Razak Baginda for US$500,000 and three tickets to Mongolia, apparently as commission owed to Aminah from a deal in Paris.

23. As Aminah had calmed down at this stage, a policewoman at the Brickfields police station advised me to leave and settle the matter amicably.

24. I duly informed Abdul Razak Baginda of the demands Aminah had made and told him I was disappointed that no one wanted to back me up in lodging a police report. We had a long discussion about the situation when I expressed a desire to pull out of this assignment.

25. During this discussion and in an attempt to persuade me to continue my employment with him, Abdul Razak Baginda informed me that:

1) He had been introduced to Aminah by Najib Razak at a diamond exhibition in Singapore.

2) Najib Razak informed Abdul Razak Baginda that he had a sexual relationship with Aminah and that she was susceptible to anal intercourse.

3) Najib Razak wanted Abdul Razak Baginda to look after Aminah as he did not want her to harass him since he was now the deputy prime minister.

4) Najib Razak, Abdul Razak Baginda and Aminah had all been together at a dinner in Paris.

5) Aminah wanted money from him as she felt she was entitled to a US$500,000 commission on a submarine deal she assisted with in Paris.

26. On Oct 19, 2006, I arrived at Abdul Razak Baginda’s house in Damansara Heights to begin my night duty. I had parked my car outside as usual. I saw a yellow Proton Perdana taxi pass by with three ladies inside, one of whom was Aminah. The taxi did a U-turn and stopped in front of the house where these ladies rolled down the window and wished me ‘Happy Deepavali’. The taxi then left.

27. About 20 minutes later the taxi returned with only Aminah in it. She got out of the taxi and walked towards me and started talking to me. I sent an SMS to Abdul Razak Baginda informing him “Aminah was here”. I received an SMS from Razak instructing me “to delay her until my man comes”.

28. Whist I was talking to Aminah, she informed me of the following:

1) That she met Abdul Razak Baginda in Singapore with Najib Razak.
2) That she had also met Abdul Razak Baginda and Najib Razak at a dinner in Paris.

3) That she was promised a sum of US$500,000.00 as commission for assisting in a submarine deal in Paris.

4) That Abdul Razak Baginda had bought her a house in Mongolia but her brother had refinanced it and she needed money to redeem it.

5) That her mother was ill and she needed money to pay for her treatment.

6) That Abdul Razak Baginda had married her in Korea as her mother is Korean whilst her father was a Mongolian/Chinese mix.

7) That if I wouldn’t allow her to see Abdul Razak Baginda, would I be able to arrange for her to see Najib Razak.

29. After talking to Aminah for about 15 minutes, a red Proton Aeroback arrived with a woman and two men. I now know the woman to be lance corporal Rohaniza and the men, Azilah Hadri and Sirul Azahar. They were all in plainclothes. Azilah walked towards me while the other two stayed in the car.

30. Azilah asked me whether the woman was Aminah and I said “Yes”. He then walked off and made a few calls on his handphone. After 10 minutes another vehicle, a blue Proton Saga, driven by a Malay man, passed by slowly. The drivers window had been wound down and the driver was looking at us.

31. Azilah then informed me they would be taking Aminah away. I informed Aminah they were arresting her. The other two persons then got out of the red Proton and exchanged seats so that lance corporal Rohaniza and Aminah were in the back while the two men were in the front. They drove off and that is the last I ever saw of Aminah.

32. Abdul Razak Baginda was not at home when all this occurred.

33. After Oct 19, 2006, I continued to work for Abdul Razak Baginda at his house in Damansara Heights from 7pm to 8am the next morning, as he had been receiving threatening text messages from a woman called ‘Amy’ who was apparently ‘Aminah’s’ cousin in Mongolia.

34. On the night of Oct 20, 2006, both of Aminah’s girlfriends turned up at Abdul Razak Baginda’s house enquiring where Aminah was. I informed them she had been arrested the night before.

35. A couple of nights later, these two Mongolian girls, Mr Ang and another Mongolian girl called ‘Amy’ turned up at Abdul Razak Baginda’s house looking for Aminah as they appeared to be convinced she was being held in the house.

36. A commotion began so I called the police who arrived shortly thereafter in a patrol car. Another patrol car arrived a short while later in which was the investigating officer from the Dang Wangi police station who was in charge of the missing persons report lodged by one of the Mongolians girls, I believe was Amy.

37. I called Abdul Razak Baginda who was at home to inform him of the events taking place at his front gate. He then called DSP Musa Safri and called me back informing me that Musa Safri would be calling handphone and I was to pass the phone to the inspector from Dang Wangi police station.

38. I then received a call on my handphone from Musa Safri and duly handed the phone to the Dang Wangi inspector. The conversation lasted 3-4 minutes after which he told the girls to disperse and to go to see him the next day.

39. On or about Oct 24, 2006, Abdul Razak Baginda instructed me to accompany him to the Brickfields police station as he had been advised to lodge a police report about the harassment he was receiving from these Mongolian girls.

40. Before this, Amy had sent me an SMS informing me she was going to Thailand to lodge a report with the Mongolian consulate there regarding Aminah’s disappearance. Apparently she had sent the same SMS to Abdul Razak Baginda. This is why he told me he had been advised to lodge a police report.

41. Abdul Razak Baginda informed me that DPS Musa Safri had introduced him to one DSP Idris, the head of the criminal division, Brickfields police station, and that Idris had referred him to ASP Tonny.

42. When Abdul Razak Baginda had lodged his police report at Brickfields police station, in front of ASP Tonny, he was asked to make a statement but he refused as he said he was leaving for overseas. He did however promise to prepare a statement and hand ASP Tonny a thumbdrive. I know that this was not done as ASP Tonny told me.

43. However ASP Tonny asked me the next day to provide my statement instead and so I did.

44. I stopped working for Abdul Razak Baginda on Oct 26, 2006 as this was the day he left for Hong Kong on his own.

45. In mid-November 2006, I received a phone call from ASP Tonny from the IPK Jalan Hang Tuah asking me to see him regarding Aminah’s case. When I arrived there I was immediately arrested under Section 506 of the Penal Code for criminal intimidation.

46. I was then placed in the lock up and remanded for five days. On the third day, I was released on police bail.

47. At the end of November 2006, the D9 department of the IPK sent a detective to my house to escort me to the IPK Jalan Hang Tuah. When I arrived, I was told I was being arrested under Section 302 of the Penal Code for murder. I was put in the lock up and remanded for seven days.

48. I was transported to Bukit Aman where I was interrogated and questioned about an SMS I had received from Abdul Razak Baginda on Oct 19, 2006 which read “delay her until my man arrives”. They had apparently retrieved this message from Abdul Razak Baginda’s handphone.

49. They then proceeded to record my statement from 8.30 am to 6pm everyday for seven consecutive days. I told them all I knew including everything Abdul Razak Baginda and Aminah had told me about their relationships with Najib Razak but when I came to sign my statement, these details had been left out.

50. I have given evidence in the trial of Azilah, Sirul and Abdul Razak Baginda at the Shah Alam High Court. The prosecutor did not ask me any questions in respect of Aminah’s relationship with Najib Razak or of the phone call I received from DSP Musa Safri, whom I believe was the ADC for Najib Razak and/or his wife.

51. On the day Abdul Razak Baginda was arrested, I was with him at his lawyers office at 6.30am. Abdul Razak Baginda informed us that he had sent Najib Razak an SMS the evening before as he refused to believe he was to be arrested, but had not received a response.

52. Shortly thereafter, at about 7.30am, Abdul Razak Baginda received an SMS from Najib Razak and showed, this message to both myself and his lawyer. This message read as follows: “ I am seeing IGP at 11am today … matter will be solved … be cool”.

53. I have been made to understand that Abdul Razak Baginda was arrested the same morning at his office in the Bangunan Getah Asli, Jalan Ampang.

54. The purpose of this Statutory declaration is to:

1) State my disappointment at the standard of investigations conducted by the authorities into the circumstances surrounding the murder of Altantuya Shaaribuu.

2) Bring to the notice of the relevant authorities the strong possibility that there are individuals other than the three accused who must have played a role in the murder of Altantuya Shaaribuu.

3) Persuade the relevant authorities to reopen their investigations into this case immediately so that any fresh evidence may be presented to the court prior to submissions at the end of the prosecutions case.

4) Emphasise the fact that having been a member of the Royal Malaysian Police Force for 17 years, I am absolutely certain no police officer would shoot someone in the head and blow up their body without receiving specific instructions from their superiors first.

5) Express my concern that should the defence not be called in the said murder trial, the accused, Azilah and Sirul will not have to swear on oath and testify as to the instructions they received and from whom they were given.

55. And I make this solemn declaration conscientiously believing the same be true and by virtue of the provisions of the Statutory Declaration Act 1960.

Balasubramaniam a/l Perumal
July 1, 2008

2008-06-10T19:57:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i pass all my subjects!!!!
oh!~!~!~!~wat a relief!!!!!!!
so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was worrying if i fail my auditing again
i sure cannot take it anymore
i mean...i will be lost & i dunno wat 2 do!!
but even i pass my auditing
i didnt get distinction like wat i promised myself i will get it
cuz i failed it before
nvm!!i pass i oredi feel happy bout it

though my another subject hasnt came up yet,
but,is ok!!!sure will pass one
haih!!so happy
even my cgpa sting like hell
nvm nvm....i m satisfied
i m contended
i want 2 sleep early tonight
i want 2 enjoy my sweet dream all night long
i hadnt hav any good night sleep after i watch The Orphanage
actually think back tat this movie is not very scary
but then,sleep alone in a room,it s hard 2 clear ur mind about this movie

okokokok
happy holiday everybody
happy study everybody
good luck to everybody
hope u share my happiness
love'ya all

2008-06-09T09:00:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday karen!!
miss u so much
all da best in ur final yr!!

waiting for u 2 come back here again
miss u Lao Shi!!

2008-06-06T20:33:00.003+08:00

government suppose to protect the people
what they do is all about public interest
& now what the people get benefit from them?
chances to make themselves poor and learn to get angry
i never understand how the govt, 'so-called-stupid as a pig'
cash rebates for cars under 2000cc,bus tickets remains constant,seat-belt & those stupid policies
izzit to protect people?or protect other interest group?
living under this stupid govt's control
life bcm tough & meaningless
somehow inside my heart i still admire Dr.M
although sometimes he does something tat no one can understand

if my statement brings me to the court
i really have ntg to say
i just say wat i feel
this is my freedom & this is my blog
& i m angry to live in this reality

小时候写的

2008-06-04T18:20:00.003+08:00

童话的真相

每次太阳的起床
虚伪的花草树木都会展现刚起身的微笑
彷佛昨晚的美梦有经过这黑色森林
你不时地往外看
却又告诉我不要期待以前的生活
小木屋的两个人
其实多么地寂寞
想要逃出去时
灰尘般的鸟儿又把我们推进去
因为王子最终与公主在一起
真的很想反抗
但无能为力
讨厌的意志力找不上来
这只是学习习惯的美德

2008-05-31T22:55:00.007+08:00

hello....
finally i m a bit free now...
so wat happened yesterday?
v went for the 地震无情，大马有爱 fund raising event for earthquake in SiChuan
which was held at The Mines Convention Center

v stayed at palace of golden horses
thanks for my auntie
cuz she gave me a chance 2 stay in Head of State Suite
& also my other 2 cousins-yeen & adi

the bed

entrance

living room 1

dining table/meeting room ?

kitchen

my model

water taxi to convention center

our room is at fifth floor, paling kiri :)

waiting...

on the boat

yeen going 2 kill me,i noe :P

the camera is bigger than his face

at 12am,v went 2 the lounge bar enjoy the 'house wine'
then v went to the other pub & had our cocktails,martini & coffee

i think i was a bit drunk :P

the next day breakfast in our suite

wat u see in these drawers?
v found it after v check-in
it s quite surprising tat 6-star hotel isnt tat 'clean' also
haih---watever,v enjoyed the night pretty good

Elvis Presley - I Cant Help Falling In Love With You

2008-05-29T20:53:00.001+08:00

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I cant help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you
For I cant help falling in love with you

2008-05-24T18:36:00.005+08:00

wat?wat u want?!!

them

them #2

fried prawn?

lala-mui mi hoon

my exams have finished
i was happy
i had seafoods with friends
movies,dinner,& lotsa things tat happened after exams
i still have another half year 2 complete my degree....is fast
but....wat 2 do?still have 2 accept it anyway

sooner or later my bf will off 2 Melbourne
honestly,everytime i think & talk about it
i feel like crying (stupid)
& i did cried (dummy)
ya...i know i shouldnt
but i really cant control my feelings

nen ching,is just 4-5 months he will not ard u
so short?!!y cant take it?!!!
arghhh....i know...but i cant

he s already bcm some1 tat is so impt 2 my life
ppl asked me y i choose him at the 1st time
y pick him as ur 1st love?
he is neither bill gates nor brad pitt
y?
well
the answer is
he treats me really good
so much more than i expected
sincerely,thr s a lot a lot of guys i have met
handsome guys with 'extreme' arrogant characteristic
stupid guys will never know wat they are doing
smart guys always think they are smarter than girls
if i imagine i 'pak tor' with them
i know is will be another limited/short-term relationship

i am principled
i am very picky
i am sensitive
i am self-fish
i see myself as the person under the spot light
so i will never take a risk/waste my time/waste my love to love some1 tat s always not good enough in my eye
i dont want to be someone already been 'used'
i oso dont want 2 have more experiences with guys
this is not for job resume,& is not tat proud 2 do tat too
i take my commitment to start relationship with my current bf
because i know he wont disappoint me
he is too good for me....
if someday i really break up with him,
i know i will still return to him
tat s me
i wont let this 'dinosaur' 2 run away from me
but as long as he is happy
i will always be with him
neither any of us is perfect bf/gf
v still hav some 'holes' tat need 2 b fixed

maybe u will laugh
but this is true

i dont want to wait for the time he leaves
but i will wait for the time he comes back to me

2008-05-01T11:51:00.002+08:00

hmm...
this post is a bit late 2 post
but still i wanna say
tuesday class was my last class with th
our study break jz started
after finals,he ll fly 2 melbourne 2 continue his studies
& v ll nvr hav same class again ,even in future
how sad...
haih....unless v join yoga class together next time...hehe
after another semester,v all need 2 go out & work edi
time passes so so so fast
i feel lazy now...
yawnnn~~~~~~~gd nite

2008-04-24T11:28:00.002+08:00

respect
do u respect everyone around u?
can u bet that u wont disrespect anyone once u get rich?
i understand thr is social class exists in our community
but we are humans who live on the same 'earth'
y cant v respect everyone,every single person?
for the least humans basis
many ppl (esp the youngsters) disrespect the 'lower class' ppl
thy think tat bcuz they didnt study hard when thy were young
now,they become other's slave,garbages collectors, car washer
but do u know how poor they are?
the environment is too bad for them to live better
their families cannot afford them 2 study 2 higher level
thy work hard for living
even their jobs do not impress other ppl
i feel disappointed
so many rich ppl out thr
do not contribute much to make the environment better
for the poor people to live better
the generation X nowadays
some are too enjoy their life & become less & lesser responsibility to the society
how pathetic
thy disrespect the old people
disrespect their parents
disrespect the maids
disrespect their children
they already spoiled by grace
I am looking forward to the future
at the same time,i observe myself whether i have crossed the line too
i hope i am a gd person too

A Lot

2008-04-21T21:24:00.004+08:00

i m much more emotional than last time
i think i m still at the process of growing up (i mean i m still teenager)
oh god....i sigh a lot
almost every second
except some happy moments
i watched a lot of HBO/Star movie/Cinemax
i think-ed a lot
i feel i prefer 2 stay at home & relax as much as i can
bcuz i dun often hav da chance 2 do tat
i jz finished my audit test
& i wait 2 face final paper next week
oh god...
somehow i hate life
why everyone needs to work hard and fight for their future when they are young?
& then only get 2 rest after retired....
why?
why r v wasting our young age on these so called 'useful activities'?
haih....i really need 2 think bout my future
work less but able 2 get the life i want
ok,not work lesser.....jz not over-work
how gd my life is if i were a cat
i sleep i eat & sleep & get sayang from humans
if i m not happy i ll play cockroaches or jaw the dogs
as simple as that

oh god....wat m i talking about??
i m talking nonsense again...
ahh.....i m not enough sleep ar....zzzzzz

2008-04-15T07:00:00.004+08:00

2008-04-13T22:52:00.002+08:00

tmr will pass up my last assignment
after struggling with those irritating assignments
i found out tat....
i m tired,yet i m lucky
lucky means...assignment can be finished & passed up on due date
i didnt contribute a lot,yet i appreciate so so so much
i told joanne tat v ll go Victoria's Station if v get the highest mark in the class
gd reward system ,rite?

i haven seen my parents for 1 week+
i miss them?...hehe
honestly,not really
but i want them 2 play hard,enjoy the trip n come back safely
this is my biggest wish

thr is a lot of conflicts recently
i mean...y this happened?
do they or do we really noe wat actually happened?
if everyone can forgive & forget
thr is no conflict exist between u & me
everything will b ok
ppl ard u will feel better too

take k everyone

2008-04-05T21:50:00.002+08:00

2day is a bad day
seriously...very bad...
i suddenly feel fed up with everything around me
everything was so fake & i dunno how to face it
everyone is so dishonest
selfish game oways played by them
how can a person destroys other ppl 2 satisfy their needs & wants
tats y the world needs law & justice
thr is no true & fair view
tat is only appear in auditor's report
sometimes i have to wear my negative spec 2 observe every1
even me
y are humans so mean & cruel?
the media oways misleading the people's view
i feel like fed up with the things i have
i m lucky bcuz i oways have some1 2 support me
i m not alone

ppl have brain but they misuse it
ppl have hand but they misuse it
ppl have leg but they misuse it
thy only know how to waste money
how to pollute the environment
how to trap enemy
ppl only only how 2 expand their self-interest 2 satisfy them
thy never know how 2 love other ppl
cuz thy never think bout it
thr s no right or wrong bout a person's point of view
i m jz a jerk who say something tat she nvr think oso
she is selfish either

2008-03-30T20:14:00.006+08:00

yo...long time didnt update my blog
hav been bz n bz wif everything
i m tired...i noe i sound desperate....but i really do
nvm....post some food photos 2 fill ur hungry stomach 1st...hehe
these photos were taken in xx & treated by my grandma

us

great grand daughter & great grand parents

new buddy-PIKA

our menu

hmm...
i m busy...
i hate assignments
i hate test
i hate homeworks
but i m happy
no matter how hard it is
thr is always someone who cheer me up
i really need to treasure these 2-3 months
before .....

2008-03-15T00:02:00.005+08:00

BBLG
Happy 6 months
thank u 4 ur patience
ur gf is so bad to u
yet u still want her,sa gua lai de
I love you!!

v were having dinner at Jack's Place at 910pm
cuz v jz watched Horton & v didnt noe whr 2 eat
da dinner set made our stomach burst
alot to eat & is quite cheap 2 eat so many things
& i was so happy 2 be with him
2 celebrate with him
happy happy happy

2008-03-14T20:27:00.003+08:00

this is ai peng,
my closest classmate during my form 4 in nan hwa
v were yam cha at dome,mid valley
she,was my gd friend,now still is my good frien
she was having a bad time in form 4
n i still can remember it
i mean...v faced a lot of things 2gether
& everything has made us closer n closer
thank u 4 being such a nice frien

2008-03-12T23:58:00.003+08:00

us at USJ11

haha...da same cake again

she helped me 2 put candles

cutting cake

hehehe
i admit tat birthday is a very special day
is a day u r waiting all the time
dunno y...
mayb when u r in mama's tummy
u wait 4 da day 2 come out n c the world
u wait 4 da day 2 receive presents
u wait 4 da day 2 eat cake
u wait 4 da day 2 receive everyone's wishes
u write ur birthday date in application forms,ppl's address book,passwords
anything
tat s y birthday is special
different from other normal days
thanks everyone...
no party this time
but i m glad i received lotsa msg(s) frm friens
is sweet
my birthday wish-
everyone will be happy & healthy

2008-03-09T11:08:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to our leng lui-AH BUM!!
our Lao Er in our PN group
all the best to you!!

mummy's dishes

2008-03-07T22:19:00.002+08:00

2008-03-07T22:08:00.002+08:00

hehe
thanks for my classmates giving me a 'surprise' this noon
actually i acted like i dunno anything at all
but i feel sweet
ya,v were having lunch at Actually Thai
& i hope my 'wish' doesnt give u all a 'fright'...hehe

2008-03-06T21:56:00.003+08:00

马英九
我支持你!!
too many politicians are dirty handed(especially the Mr ''Thank You'')
but i know you wont
Taiwan will have a bright future if you lead the country
i hope the Taiwanese are not blinded and pick the wrong president
it will be the greatest disaster to Taiwan
马英九一定要当选!!

2008-03-02T16:22:00.003+08:00

a sky with a sun makes a beautiful scenery
everyday & beyond the infinity

2008-02-24T20:14:00.003+08:00

mum was talking bout my birthday during dinner
& da 1st thing came into my mind was my last yr's birthday
fate sent me Hippy 2 cheer up my March
tat was my greatest birthday month ever in my life
it s been a yr,but i jz cant forget about u
& i hate my uncontrollable eyes when i think bout u

2008-02-24T18:34:00.002+08:00

Sunday,wat a beautiful day
i try my best to empty every Sunday for my family
v laugh,v play,v talk,v eat,v argue,v scream & v even fight
but this is wat v called 'Family', right?
i feel stress-less when i m with them
sometimes honestly i m with non-family members
i feel insecure,
i feel like a lot of ants moving around my neck & my back
i noe i m weird but i do feel tat
i m not complaining them, jz tat if i leave my family for too long
i ll feel tat....
i got serious homesick
even wif relatives i oso feel da same
i only feel completely ok if my papa,mama & jie jie & him,one of them is around
so....i need at least a day in a week to spend with family
& tat s Sunday
a quiet peaceful Sunday
i felt blessed today
bcuz i had a chatting session wif my grandma during morning jogs
i love today,really love..

天天说

2008-02-16T15:39:00.000+08:00

太阳天(或)下雨天
人挤人的咖啡店
找一个能想你舒服的角落
看着情人肩靠肩
慢慢转开我视线
有个女孩让我好想念

我的心已经飞到这个城市的另一边
想看着你　我爱的脸
把心里的感情都对你说

那马路上天天都在塞
而每个人天天在忍耐
没有你日子很黑白
原来这样就是恋爱
我想要你在我身边
分享生命中的一切
我想要天天说天天说
天天对你说我有多爱你

晴天

2008-02-16T12:19:00.002+08:00

it s been 5 months v have together
v celebrated our valentine's & 5 months in 2 days
5 months...
is quite long & uneasy
v faced challenges
v argued
v sad for some quarrels
but today
v r still together
v r learning from the mistakes

thr r uncountable sweet memories
unforgettable & lovely moments v had,& v goin 2 have more in future
& if someone asks me do i feel regret 2 choose him
i will say,''never be no''

thx for ur gift
i guess i m the luckiest gal 2 have this valentine's gift
& thank u for spending a dinner time wif me last nite
thanking you

chinese new year

2008-02-11T22:03:00.001+08:00

our 'children' table

grandma's house

v oso went to Tien Hou Temple(izzit correct?)

day to wear grey 'uniform'

waiting for the food

& the seniors had oredi started

this is best for the rainy day

wj & her uncle,same birthday 18/11/2003

my melaka' cousins

FOODS(dont kill me :P cuz i put few photos only...hehe)

foods of the day

2008-02-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

Ann,dont kill me pls.....i long time didnt post food photos

2008-02-03T17:48:00.001+08:00

so v finally had PN meeting on 2nd of February
at Jusco,Klang
5 of us havin PN
noises & laughters are unavoidable

them

us

v found out tat v wore da same style of slipper during toilet time

elisa is leaving soon....i feel sad 4 her
but i know she ll b stronger after this
karen leaving again...hehe...wait for another CNY 2 meet up wif her

all the best 2 PN members!!love u all
Laoda,Ann,Bum,Hong,Elsa,Ren!!
Happy Chinese New Year

2008-02-03T17:17:00.000+08:00

yeah,on 31st January
v were having new yr dinner at Restaurant Jo
i have 2 apologize to Miss Hwee Chia
cuz she only can eat 1 out of 7 dishes ...sorry sorry
so da table was fulled of 12 of us...hehe

hwee chia,chinyi & lunyao

here comes @pril,diane & HC

OOPS....a bit blur

all of us

then v had supper at Friendster Cafe

my new yr resolution:
I WANT EVERYONE PUT MORE LOVE TO EVERYONE

thr r 2 'drunkers' walking in pyramid

2008-01-30T15:57:00.000+08:00

busy busy & busy....
can i rest 1 day jz 2 do my assignments?
no,i noe i cant.....is ok
since college started i havent properly update my life 2 u
yes,is da same...
jz tat i only hav class on mon till wed
3days a week
but is a full day,quite packed
but i can rest after wednesday
ok la....this saturday got PN meeting....c how many photos i can get
study!

2008-01-27T12:31:00.000+08:00

photos on last friday

2008-01-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

Heath Ledger
I noe him from the movie,Brokeback Mountain
I cried when i watched this movie
& is such a tragic to hear his news this afternoon
speechless....
haih...

2008-01-20T08:14:00.000+08:00

i have been busy busy & busy
i dunno when will i stop busy-ing
i think maybe till the day i die,i will only feel released
i wanna sleep on my bed until i hate my bed
i wanna be quiet till i really want to say something
i wanna close my eyes till i hate darkness

i have been emo for a moment
i hate being that
i consider myself as the most calm & cheerful person
among everyone i noe
even i hav some bad characters...i admit that
but now,i am not
i become a person who easily sells her tears
& oways create wound in her heart
like nothing to find something to bother
omg...
i really need to think bout myself.....
slap my face till i wake up
i cannot be like tat
i have a great family & friends
how can i being emo for nothing
....
punish myself to clean my room by today...Deal!

thank you for you
i dunno how to grow up without u
thank you,for not letting go my hand

2008-01-16T20:24:00.001+08:00

2day is my last day working as temp credit review analyst in APL-NOL(M) Sdn Bhd
i really dunno how 2 say
cuz too much things 2 say
even i jz worked for 2 months as a small character
but this means a lot 2 me...
as the youngest in my department
the gal who oways go to the toilet
the gal who oways fill water for her bottle
the gal who oways eat bread/chocolate at her seat
the gal who oways walk 2 da utility room
the gal oways notice every single person who walk in unit901...hehe
i miss everyone in my department
even i m not so close 2 them
i noe thy dunno much about me
cuz i was too quiet
i didnt talk much bout myself,
i guess thy jz guess me from how i look
the gal who is 20 but looks like more than tat
fashion & hair r da disasters...ya,i ll fix it by this week
thanks for the treat & present 2day
& most importantly
thanks for giving me a great working experience
i enjoyed it so much

this is da place v ate,for lunch

12 of us,except me holding the camera...hehe

Rowena,the one who fulled of patient to teach me everything
a gal who oways smile smile smile
like thr s no bad things ever happen on her
i think i need 2 learn 2 smile in every single time 2 let ppl noe how happy i am
million thanks 2 u...i appreciate it....indeed

hallo...3,2,1...CHEESE~~

the gals(shalom,vanessa,rowena) & hot mama wif blue stripe(chris)
Shalom,the 1st gal i 'talked' to...
thanks 4 letting me sat beside u when i had no place 2 sit
thanks 4 asking me 4 lunch
& sorry i wore da same type of heels wif me,even da color is not same
cuz my other heels 'mati' edi....i really went Vincci & nose 2 find replacement
btu i failed 2 make it...hehe
Wan Hoon(Chris),the prettiest gal in our department
she is married & got a son edi....
her body....tsk tsk tsk......so much better than mine...
i really got a bit jealous on her..haha
next time i ll be mother,i wanna like her
& i oredi asked some tips 2 b mum from her edi,thank godness's sake!!!!haha
thanks 4 ur card,it s sweet :)

my supervisor,Ming Yuet
she is the one who interviewed me & gave me the chance to work
thanks!!!

Siva,my another supervisor
gd family guy but sometimes when he talked,he gave me a fright
haha..typical family guy
thanks 4 ur words 2day,i nearly cry...hehe

Chee Sun,manger of Credit Review
i would say,he is totally different esp during lunch hr
he can talk on everything
now i noe wat qualities a manager should have
& tat s what i observed

Ravi,he is da 1st person who gave me work 2 do
& i was very scared cuz i tot he ll scold me...haha,anyway,he didnt & nvr
he is a funny guy & i noe he is a gd bf of a gf
hehe...i noe it,& my statement is correct...hehe

Melvin,he jz joined our department
dunno him much,but he s from Metro RMIT oso,
but i noe he s talkative,
i believe he can bring lotsa fun to our department

Howard,senior analyst who sat beside me
but i think i only able to c him 2-3 times a week
mayb he s senior,so he can come anytime gua...haha
he sounds very polite
but....indeed....i dunno...ahaha,i heard stg when i came working on HAJI..hehe
but he is nice n humor...this is true

Syed,Ravi's GF...ahaha
funniest person in our department
without him,thr s no laughter...
thank u 2 let me have time 2 smile even i m working...hehe

Vanessa...did i spell wrongly?
she joined in wif melvin
i noe her for few days only....but v talked a lot,rite?haha
thank u 2 let me talk rubbish..
i enjoy it...haha...bring it on,gal

Europe Group,3 of us

Great of China+ Europe

a complete Family Credit Review Photo

& not least,Angie
i jz wan 2 say......i oways do wrong thing when i work wif u
sorry ya.....but thanks 4 'bullying' me
thanks 4 giving me 'meals'....
thank u...u jz like a mama...hehe
this is a compliment,thanks anyway

i still have lotsa words 2 say...yet i cant finish it
2 months r like 2 yrs....it marks in my head & heart
i cant remove it easily...unless i m Parkinson..hehe
the moment is pretty
the experience is diamond
the people make u calm & warm
i considered myself as the luckiest one...really...
i dun hav to 'satay' as it doesnt benefit me anything
i love it & dun hate me
because i really happy.... 2 beautiful months
a meaningful break...
thank you

2008-01-11T21:21:00.001+08:00

feelings are shared
my photos expressed my feelings

2008-01-11T21:07:00.001+08:00

& on 31st December,was celebrating Grandma's birthday

this cake was made by my uncle
it s really really delicous
i ll nvr 4get the taste of this cake,seriously

after i took da 1st photo of the dish
thy decided 2 put their 'YEAH' when i took da 2nd one
so 'bekerjasama' even i didnt ask them 2 do so

2008-01-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

sorry for the absence
i was busy & now only i have time 2 update my blog
on 1st Jan,v had PN outing
& had lunch at Fasta Pasta(not really nice..) in Ikano
wif karen,bum,hong

my cousin finally dare 2 show off in front of camera..hehe

even da waiter took 2 pics 4 us,but da pic still blur...haih

the foods....not so nice,
but since i have taken da photo..so i jz post it

2007-12-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

Movies I have watched this year in TGV/GSC/Cineplexes

The Guardian
Blood Diamond
Ghost Rider
Norbit
Music & Lyrics
Pan's Labyrinth
300
Mr Bean 's Holidays
Teenage Mutant of Ninja Turtles
Spiderman 3
Alone
Shrek 3
Transformers
Ocean 13
Fantastic 4 : Rise of Silver Surfer
Blades of Glory
Pirates & the Caribbeans: At World's End
Harry Potter
Dead Silence
The Simpsons Movie (watch twice)
Secret
Ratatouille
Hairspray
Train of the Dead
Star Dust
Shoot'em Up
Bee Movie
Lust, Caution
Balls of Fury
The Seeker: The Dark is Rising
Magic Gourd
Rush Hour 3 (watch twice)
Die Hard 4.0
I Now Pronounce you Chuck & Larry
The Last Breathe
Enchanted
Beowolf
Heartbreak Kid
National Treasure 2
Alvin & the Chipmunk
I am Legend
Atonement

2007-12-23T22:25:00.001+08:00

we were celebrating Winter Solstice Festival tonight
because many of us not free on saturday
so we decided to gather for dinner

main table

mum made it

roasted goose brought by Mr Yoon

Lamb from Mache,by my brother

spaghetti by sis in law

& not least,curry chicken

before dinner

the nosiest one

during dinner

wif our 'bartender' who faced a interview by a group of 6 from 3 generations
hehe...
overall the dinner is gd & perfect
Christmas is coming soon,
happy birthday to a frien whose birthday falls on christmas eve
wishing everyone is happy
esp those in uk,ann & lao da
love u!!

2007-12-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

it s been 2days i cannot speak
i was having flu
now coughing...until i m mute now
can't speak at all
even i ordered my lunch yesterday wif my colleagues
i need 2 type dishes in my hp & showed it to a waitress
& when i bought medicine in pharmacy
i need 2 write on paper like chatting wif her,i write,she answer...haih
i cant speak for 2days!!!!!how can i accept this?????
i cant answer phone calls
i cant call my grandparents & aunties when i meet them
i cant order food
& i m teased by everyone....so shit...
haih

.......
.......

2007-12-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

i found out tat actually i changed a lot
in my love perspection
when i was single,
i can describe love in words
it s like easy to explain & understand
now,it s no longer easy
Love is really really complicated
haha....
in simple words,
I m not looking down on LOVE anymore like before
i glad my family accepted him...in funny way
my NG families noe this new guy appears in our circle
some worried tat my mum may doesnt like it
but she s fastest who noe bout this,
even she was in thailand tat time
i was still happily informed her in the phone
''mama,I pak tor edi!!''
mama answered,''okok,when i back only talk bout this la''
''dont tell papa yet ar...hehe''

but now sometimes papa 's reaction makes me wanna laugh out LOUD

papa,thank u...hehehe

2007-12-18T21:37:00.000+08:00

well,christmas is coming soon
so last saturday v havin a small party at Mr Jaryd Yap's house

nah,this is him

part of the games

part of the activity

this is super delicious,thank u Yen Sze

this also nice...but i dunno cooked by who....Joanne Ewe ar?or Nic?hehe

& Guests of the day

1st,Ms Siow

then Nic

Theng Theng

Lun Yao

Daniel

& Diane
& others...sorry,didnt hav ur photos...ngek ngek
Chinyi,Mel & her bf,Jiani & her bf,Yen Sze,Chung Seng & Sheree aka Bunny
even i have,those r frogs on the head...hehehehe

ok,1st game started

i wonder wat thy were talking bout....jia jia

so......

tat day was our 3 months
Happy 3 months & 3 days,Mr Yoon

2007-12-16T14:55:00.000+08:00

dunno wat 2 say
i tot my blog is viewed by 'certain buddies'
& thy ll leave comment after thy viewed it
yesterday i only noe tat i was wrong...speechless...

yeeeeeeeeeeeer...teased me yesterday?
i ll upload those 'criminals' photos' when i m free again
ngek ngek ngek

lets wait & c.. :P

2007-12-11T14:13:00.000+08:00

haih..
dunno wat 2 say
i feel so-not-free nowadays
i think i need 2 work till 630pm in weekdays
weekends...thr s only 2days
1 day for friens,& 1 day for family(including him)
wat happens if 2 or 3 diff grps of friens ask u 2 join them?
on da same day summore.....oh my..
really hard 2 make decision...this is wat i can say...haih..

dear all,this is not wat i want,i m sorry
feel very hard 2 satisfied every1 now

2007-12-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

this is my seat
this phone costs around rm500,can u imagine?
i can jz dial 3 digits & can call any staff in 88 countries

sorry,a bit messy
but u nvr noe
sometimes it covered by all papers,& my keyboard is gone

the gold ribbon shines in the dark

haih...i feel so sleepy after lunch
feel like sleeping but cant sleep.....haih
help me..

2007-12-04T19:21:00.000+08:00

use your age to solve your problem
no problem is unsolved
unless you don't want to face it
even though i sound & really am happy
but i guess i m unable to make people around to be happy as me
maybe they aren't around
this is what i want to say
i m not saying this because i m smart
i just want to say
today i keep thinking about it
& i don't feel good
nevermind,i guess they are wise enough to solve it
i have no place or right to tell them what to do

2007-11-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

to dear all my friens
i maybe busy & forget to sms/call u back recently
i m sorry
evil nen ching got full time job as credit review analyst in xxcompany under NOL Group
monday -friday,830am-5.30pm
pls forgive her,k?
better sms/call me in weekends
cuz at night...
i got dinner,shower,tidy my things then...sleep
normally dun hav time 2 entertain
college thingy oso makes me feel frustrated
esp da program director,is not tat i 1 2 complain her
nc's principles-NEVER COMPLAIN & NEVER EXPLAIN
my mum went 2 find her,no result
asked me 2 email her,no reply
asked me 2 phone her,no confirm answer
asked me 2 take leave n c her,not appear at all
asked me 2 wait 4 her call,no call at all after 2 days
wat kind of director is this?
nvm...no need 2 complain her
i m the one who failed,watever.....
some1 will complain 4 me,so i no need 2 come out n face this

dear all,
i really love him
hehe

2007-11-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

i m jz back from pak tor
actually.....this post should b in my diary but not in my blog
but nvm....cuz u nvr noe wat i think & how i think recently
it s been 2 months & a half
it s totally unexpected tat v will b 2gether
is like...v hav been 2gether for many yrs
i can only describe tat...
our relationship..is very very very deep
i cant c da length,width & weight
it s jz......i dunno...
i hadnt seen him for 5 days last week cuz i was working
& i told my mum tat,tat 5 days like 5 yrs...so suffering,n she was luffing
i nvr love some1 like this b4
i nvr miss some1 like tat b4
for sure,i nvr miss some1 until i cry before 15th Sept 2007
i nvr love some1 as same as the level of loving my family
bcuz he s oredi being part of my family

everytime going out wif him,i m happy
we ate alot of foods
watched a lot of movies
pak tor in many places
b wif him,i 4get my tiredness, sickness & sadness
everything jz gone...except happiness
i guess...
we have found the right person in our life
i hope u all can b da witnesses
who prove tat my statement is true

2day v went 2 ss15 for breakfast
went ikea 2 share our opinions on fittings & furnitures
then go cineleisure for movie,& not least,couple seats 4 us
dinner at ss2
everything was so fine...
until 925pm
i was stuck in his car bcuz i didnt 1 2 go out
the day i had been waited for '5 years'
now like gone in 1 second
so fast v hav ended our pak tor trip

i love everything he does/did for me
ya,he is wearing a spec
which was restricted in my requirement for bf
but i cannot control my feelings
i dunno y is HIM
y not others,as thy wear spec oso
but...let me tell u
he is different from the guys i noe
& he has a gd bf,gd husband & gd father quality
i believe wat i observe is true
i believe my feelings
obviously i m not tat desperate 2 simply love a guy
bcuz my love 2 him will b more but not lesser
thank god v hav found each other
thank u for loving me
& thank u for choosing me at the beginning

2007-11-19T18:20:00.000+08:00

2day is my second day 2 work...
so far is ok
every1 is friendly actually
but thy r bz
u dun hav things 4 me 2 do
even thy hav,thy ll still very helpful
i didnt do much on works
most of da time i was looking some papers & think other things
during lunch,many was askin me 2 teman them
but too friendly edi.....i jz....follow lo

& when i was working,
joanne was calling me,but i didnt pick up
yuan lai results are out
after sms-ing wif her
i only noe i failed my auditing
only i fail in my gang
hmmm.....i should cry rite?
cuz,actually auditing is not a very hard subject
& i can understand da questions n write watever i noe
but i guess i wrote too little
many point forms...cuz i followed da past yr paper format answer sheet
i write points without explanation
so i guess this is y i failed
hmmm....mayb i wasnt hav much work 2 do tat time
i was thinking,.....should i cry?
should i b sad?
ya...mayb....a bit disappointed
but...NO....no way 4 me 2 cry
how can i cry?if i cry,i ll make other ppl more sad n worry 4 me
& no tears...seriously....
i quickly sms my parents 2 tell them i failed auditing
my mum...ok la...asked me whether can resit da paper onot
my dad....asked me dun giv up,do better next time
ok lo....retake again lo ...wat 2 do?
if got ppl luff then let them luff lo
if got ppl console u then jz take it lo
ok....last time i dun hav target 4 my result
this time if i retake 4 my auditing,i want to get distinction!!
who say nen ching cannot? ngek ngek ngek
ok la....do watever i want

feel better after throw out wat i 1 2 say
to my dearest,i m ok

2007-11-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

u will only feel lonely when u have fallen in love with someone

"Wouldnt it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldnt have to wait so long
And wouldnt it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldnt it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together weve been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldnt it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldnt be a single thing we couldnt do
We could be married
And then we d be happy

Wouldnt it be nice"